The Outlaw Torn

And know I wait my whole lifetime... for you
And know I wait my whole lifetime... for you

I ride the dirt; I ride the tide... for you
I search the outside, search inside... for you

To take back what you left me
I know I'll always burn to be
No one seeks so I may find
And now I wait my whole lifetime

Outlaw of Torn

Outlaw of Torn
And I'm Torn

So on I wait my whole lifetime... for you
So on I wait my whole lifetime... for you

The more I search, the more my need... for you
The more I bless, the more I bleed... for you

You make me smash the clock and feel
I'd rather die behind the wheel
Time was never on my side
So on I wait my whole lifetime

Outlaw of Torn
Outlaw of Torn
Outlaw of Torn
And I'm Torn

Hear me
And if I close my mind in fear
Please pry it open
See me
And if my face becomes sincere
Beware
Hold me
And when I start to come undone
Stich me together
Save me
And when you see me strut
Remind me of what left this outlaw Torn

So I haven't updated this thing in ages

So whats new?

...Landed a super-awesome job in I.T. and creative writing...
...Began freelancing somewhat into creative writing, and loving it...
...Began dating once again on a quasi-regular basis (one at a time), and damnitt, I hate the word "dating", seems like I'm back in middle school...
...Lost 20 lbs (down to about 222)...
...Freaked more people out (yay)...
...New iPhone!...
...Two new computers in the apartment...
...Saw my mother the other day, she put on a bit of weight, can't tell if that's good or bad...
...Found Seaport Village as my own little "getaway" place...


Yeah, otherwise, not much has changed. Except for this.

http://www.superhumanunknown.com

It'll be launched sometime in the summer. And when I mean summer, probably next year. But seriously, I'm aiming for July. Whenever I get prolongs of time (at least before Comic Con).

It’s just another whatever-kind of birthday for me.

I'm very much conflicted when it comes to birthdays. Sometimes I feel like it's just another day, and sometimes I feel like a king for a day.

This year is no different. But either way, it's somewhat of a milestone birthday for me, depending on how you look at it.

Still, I feel older than what my birth certificate says. At least in my head.

It’s just another whatever-kind of birthday for me.

I'm very much conflicted when it comes to birthdays. Sometimes I feel like it's just another day, and sometimes I feel like a king for a day.

This year is no different. But either way, it's somewhat of a milestone birthday for me, depending on how you look at it.

Still, I feel older than what my birth certificate says. At least in my head.

Random Lyrics

Time, why you punish me?
Like a wave bashing into the shore
You wash away my dreams.

Time, why you walk away?
Like a friend with somewhere to go
You left me crying

Can you teach me about tommorrow
And all the pain and sorrow
Running free?
Cause tomorrows just another day
And I dont believe in time

Time, I dont understand
Children killing in the street
Dying for the color of red
Time, hey there red and blue
Wash them in the ocean, make them clean,
Maybe their mothers wont cry tonight

Can you teach me about tomorrow
All the pain and sorrow
Running free?
But tomorrows just another day
And I dont believe in...

Time is wasting
Time is walking
You aint no friend of mine
I dont know where Im goin
I think Im out of my mind
Thinking about time

And if I die tomorrow, yeah
Just lay me down in sleep

Time is wasting
Time is walking
You aint no friend of mine
I dont know where Im goin
I think Im out of my mind
Thinking about time

Time, you left me standing there
Like a tree growing all alone
The wind just stripped me bare, stripped me bare
Time, the past has come and gone
The futures far away
Now only lasts for one second, one second
Can you teach me about tomorrow
And all the pain and sorrow
Running free?
cause tomorrows just another day
And I dont believe in time

Time is wasting
Time is walking
You aint no friend of mine
I dont know where Im goin
I think Im out of my mind
Thinking about time

Time, why you punish me?

Weddings

I just noticed, all of a sudden, people I know have either already gotten married are in the process of getting married. I don't hold any jealousy against them, because I haven't had any interest in getting married anytime soon, nor have I really dated since the evangelical ex-girlfriend. That was a few years ago, who I have gotten over but somehow she hasn't gotten over me. Blah.

But yeah, I kinda don't know what to do at this point. I guess I take a "I don't care", "whatever happens happens" attitude when it comes to dating/relationships.

Old School Clips - Take Two

My first posting on old YouTube clips went over fairly well, so here is my second installment.

Like I said, I am a 1990s Disney nut. Adventures in Wonderland was a early 1990s TV show based around a somewhere-around teen (oddly named Alice, I don't know where they got that from) - notice the sarcasm - and based around the book and Disney movie. The highlight of the show was always Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum, two black rappers/dancers.


Usually shown either before or after Mighty Morphin Power Rangers were this ripoff show called SuperHuman Samurai Syber Squad. Featuring a younger Matthew Lawrence as Servo, it took video clips from the Japanese show Denkou Choujin Gridman, much like Saban took footage from the Japanese series Super Sentai. For some odd reason for a while I got more into this series than Power Rangers, mostly because I owned all of the action figures muhahahahaha!


Me and Erin got into a lengthy discussion about old Disney shows some time ago, and I had brought up that I as a very young kid owned a shitload of Disney Sing-Along Songs videotapes. I think for the next hour or something around those lines, we talked about pretty much how much these tapes rocked. One of my favorite songs was the end of what I can remember a few of those tapes (further research suggests it was only on one, blah). But since I can't find the English version, you folks on the interwebs will have to settle with the Dutch version. Nonetheless, you'll know what it is just be the first couple notes.


Friday night. TGIF. ABC. Need I say more?

Some stuff to chew on...

Some, well, too much of my world is way too negative. So how I currently see it, there is absolutely no reason at all to not be positive to peers. When you do negative things to yourself, the reaction from yourself or others will always, 100% be negative. But if I just happen to do positive things, the worst one could expect is negative, but the hopeful outcome is obviously positive.

It just seems that anything positive I do for peers ends up having either a negative or no reaction at all. I honestly don't do things for attention, but because I really do love people. And I hope the end result is the same love I give to others. Hasn't happen for me in years, but I try. Then again, I am not in this game of living for myself but to give others a better life.

There is just too much damn negativity in our world, and if just one person smiles for something I have done, then I have done my job.

Hmmm....

Faced with the facts.

I never really get to talk to my peers face to face. It's mostly because no one wants to interact with me, and I am still to this day pondering why. I try to go out of my way to lend a helping hand, to try to stay in touch with others, but they seem to not want to respond, or even do the same for me.

Every time I see a group of friends hanging out, laughing, or when I think about someone I know hanging out with others, having a good time, it brings me down because I'm not there. I don't get to share in that enjoyment.

I don't know why.

I guess I'll never know.

My appreciation for Eurodance

Today I found some Eurodance stuff in my 40,000+ music collection that I haven't listened to for a long time. For those who are playing at home, mix Techno along with Trance and Drum and Bass, played with heavy beats, and you got Eurodance.

I might just go to bed with a playlist going. I have at least 4,000 of this stuff.

Making the best of my 4th of July

So last night I found out my grandfather passed away, and I don't know how to react. It's kinda the fact that, along with my father, I don't know much about him, so I don't know if I should cry my eyes out, or shrug it off as if it's just another person. After all, he is flesh and blood.

Comic-Con, come today!

I found me a bootleg copy of The Dark Knight today via my super cool neighbor. I'm debating seeing it, because the quality is piss poor, and it might just be worth the two week wait.

Top ten websites to avoid at all cost!

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Well look who came in the door today!

What sucks is that it was a lost dog, and I can't keep any un-caged pets past 30 days. We were able to find his owner, but damnitt, I want a dog!

Rest In Peace George Carlin

For anyone who never realized the impact George had on our society, he was the one who created the "seven deadly words" that ended up being adapted to the FCC's indecency policy. He loved to attack religion, he loved to attack (lovely) our country when it comes to being pussies towards profanity and nudity, and damnitt, he knew how to play with a crowd like no other. He was a true pioneer in the comedy and political world.

Something to think about...

"It is not your reaction to what you have done but rather it is justifying what you have done".

People sometimes piss me off.

At the Padres game last night. I had just gotten my garlic fries and drink, when all of a sudden this fat chick walks up to me, and just takes a swipe at some of my garlic fries. Disgusted, I threw more than my share of profanities at her, almost enough to be restrained by one of the ballpark crew members.

So after that is over and I head to my seat, a couple, no older than maybe 25, proceeded to "witness" to me about Jebus. Can't you realize that I'm at a baseball game, trying to enjoy a baseball game, not for a religious lecture?

So please, give me a reason I should like people.

Brian Regan is funny!

Testing this thing out

And it works!